10/99

I know there is nothing new I can say or show you that will be any different from what you have heard in the past. I also know I do not posses all the qualities that one might desire to have, so I feel as a hypocrite in a way sharing with you my thoughts. So I am going to share with you some things I have gone through on my journey in hopes that it might help you in some way.

I have read many books and absorbed much knowledge. With each new book I absorbed I needed more to help fill in the peaces of the puzzle I was putting together. Some of the knowledge I took in disturbed peaces of the puzzle I already had in place – leaving me with more questions to ask. Everything I came across I agreed with to some degree which confused me even more.

The spiritual path and finding the answers became my new addiction. I found myself trying out many different practices (Buddhism, Native American). I had become fixated on the light, like a moth to the flame. I see now that to actually go back to the light you have to let go of yourself. For the moth to join the light it must be burned. In going to the light I lose myself. One alternative is to bring the light here through me.

Maybe the goal of it all is to not get to the light, but to live the best life you can live for yourself and others. Being it ALL and knowing it ALL is not the gift, maybe individuality is the gift we have been given.

So it comes back to, what can I do to live the best life I can and bring light to this world? The answer that has been repeated in just about every religious book is the same: LOVE. Now love confuses most people. Actually what some call love is just the opposite of love. The best definition of love I have heard is unconditional acceptance (compassion).

I leave you with this:

Live life in unconditional acceptance of all life

Know that you will make mistakes, so love yourself.